Friday, November 29, 2013

JUDGE M MICHAEL BAXTER RECOVERED ALCOHOLIC VERSUS EUGENIE HARRIS A SURVIVOR OF TORTURE

work in progress 

JUDGE MICHAEL BAXTER WHO IS HE?
Based on the information I gathered online, Judge M Michael Baxter is a man who should be viewed as an inspiration to others in all aspects of his life. What impresses me about Judge M Michael Baxter is his apparent ability to hit a snag in his life and not get stuck in it. Baxter will rethink things and improve his circumstances and come out even bigger and better than who he was before he hit that snag. I will be detailing a couple of places he has hit a snag and explain how this man overcomes and conquers. These skills are amazing for a judge to have. Baxter should be able to understand how difficult change is  and understand it is a process to achieve progress. If he is a man who thinks well I did it so can you and is not factoring in the fact that not ever one comes with the same set of skills not everyone followed the same path and had the same people teaching them the same set of skills to be able to show the same kind of strength Baxter has. If he is a man who sees each person who comes before him as a different combination of strengths and weaknesses that need to be worked with to figure out how to best help that person than we do have an amazing judge. I have to assume the people who stand before him during a workweek for Baxter have probably spent most of their life being told they were worthless or bad, and or treated in such a way that the message was sent to that person. Baxter is in a position for the first time in that persons life to treat them with respect and fairness. Not shove their face in the mud telling them to eat what you are, so to speak.

Finding of Facts
ALCOHOLISM
1) Baxter is a recovered alcoholic? I will place a question mark on that statement, and change it to; "Baxter is either a recovered addict or has personal  experience with someone important to him that struggled with it. The judge is very passionate about addiction recovery specifically  alcohol.

FUN FACT: Addicts spend a good chunk of their time treating emotions with chemicals. So that can often make it difficult for a recovered addict to help another addict through recovery process. They lack the ability to Identify or check emotions not just for themselves but for other people as well.  So while a recovered addict might be able to take you through the 1,2,3' steps of recovery they struggle with emotion checking which is crucial for the addict to be able to do .

When  I see someone with a drug or an alcohol problem, or even gambling problem; the first thing that comes to my mind is empathy. The Empathy is connected to the addict and the addicts family, as well as any other unintended victims who accidently stumble in to the addicts destructive path and did not come out unscathed.

When I see a recovered addict the first thing that goes through my mind is again empathy. Yes, the person addicted is  leaving a trail of hurt loved ones behind and looking for new potential victims. That person is hurting that person at some point was given the message that how they feel does not matter. That person was never given the tools. Many factors play a role. Sometimes a persons genetics are more powerful than then the nurture. In those cases you will see a long line of cycled abuse and incarceration.There are people who physically abuse their children and then their are people  who are never going to be able to put the emotional needs of the child in front of their own if it conflicts with what they want. Those people are the equivalent of someone who can shake a baby to death. No matter how it looks or appears in their adult life someone hurt them. It was never made O'Kay they had no emotion checker

The recovered  I am always honored to meet! They had to start from scratch and relearn how to do things. They had to get past the ego that tells them they do not have a problem. People in the community will often  feed the addicts pain by reinforcing the self destructive belief that he/she is worthless. Or even worse the addicted person hurt their child or parent who cannot forgive the sober person who stand in front of them who wants to tell them they are sorry. Recovery is extremely hard and they need their family they need a strong support network. God forbid if they did not have a reason to do better or did not have that family support. I will never treat an addict harshly I will always care that they are not alright.


NOT ME!
and
THIS IS WHY

Addiction is often a cycle within the nuclear family. Addiction provides temporary relief from emotional dis-regulation. It can make the individual temporarily feel regular.
The first regulator in a person  life is their mother . 
Ideally, the child is provided for within a caring environment, and learns that caretakers can be counted on to help when needed.  Say for example the mother is loving and nurturing according to psychologists who testified in a court,  and the mother is assessed  as a zero risk to ever abuse her children, the child;s first regulator is meeting  the emotional needs of the child.The mother's home is baby proofed and clean and is stocked with plenty of healthy foods the mother is making sure the child's physical needs are being met. This signals everything is o'kay for the child. This is why when Sally Schroer asked the child were you scared? The four year old said no I am not scared.


But 


what happens when the environment is neglectful, erratic, frightening or otherwise injurious (overtly or covertly)?  In this case the system is experienced by the child as rigid, abandoning, chaotic and/or punishing.  This is the genesis of toxic shame and an unshakeable inner “badness.”  Such a child learns that she is on her own, and that others cannot tolerate dimensions of his/her very existence; his/her desires, needs and wants have to be amputated, tucked away somewhere hidden.  What happened to the four year old who was not scared in that interview is horrible. Sally schroer documents after she stripped him of his mother and placed him with a stranger how panicked he is to be alone. The once confident four year old's former confidence is replaced 100% by terror and he is suddenly begging people to never leave him alone again. That change in the four year old who went from confident to terrorized was the result of an adult who demonstrated rigid, chaotic and punishing behaviors taking away his feeling of everything is O'kay and his mommy who normally reinforces that. 

When the same child begged to spend just one night with his mommy he promised he would never eat of cry and would sleep on the hard floor just to be near her. The visitation supervisor does not document it and it goes ignored. Repeatedly these children's emotional needs are being neglected by abusive people. Mother even had a treatment center that would allow the children to join mother but the case worker aware of their emotional distress said the mother shot her self in the foot and she will not be sending the kids to join her. So the little boy has visits one hour a week and is in agony. The case worker ignored it. The child cannot get the adults to listen. The child told the people who want to keep him he wants his mommy not them. That conflicted with what the adults wanted so they chose to torment him.


The face of a child who is told its time to go back to foster care.  This traumatic separation from essential desires for connection results in depression, anxiety, isolation and/or physical symptoms such as headaches, disturbances in appetitesleep or other somaticizations. The child has not seen her mother since this photo was taken in early september 2013. 

The screams of a baby being told its time to go back to foster care EVEN AFTER A YEAR OF GOING THROUGH THIS OVER AND OVER 


AND THE PEOPLE IN CHARGE IGNORE IT. 

THE MOTHER IS SO BROKEN 
YOU SEE THAT IS HOW ADDICTS COME TO BE . 
wHILE BAXTER PROMOTES SOBRIETY HE IS NOT ABOVE EMOTIONALLY ABUSING A MOTHER WHO WAS TORTURED TO TAKE HER CHILDREN.


The judge had the option of placing someone responsible in charge to keep this family together so that the mother had time to get treatment and still be involved. Unfortunately for the children Baxter denied that when it was requested at  6 months, 7 months, 8 months, 9 months, 10, months 11 months. The Judge felt that ignoring the childrens terror from the separation of there mother which increased over a period of a year was in their best interest. (there emotional regulator was taken away) their needs were ignored. Then the judge did the unthinkable because the mother has endured torture through out her childhood equivalent to that of a nazi concentration camp she has C-PTSD the judge could not see that in the end when she had completed everything she had not slept for 3 day periods of time due to his terror of stripping her of her children. CPTSD symptoms often look like bad behavior. She had jumped all the hoops and he only offered a stay on a termination. this is commonly offered when rights are terminated to allow visitation during the appeal period. This judge then took the mothers children for a quicky forced adoption to people who have repeatedly shown they are not fit to be parents. They cannot put the emotional needs in front of their own. For example if you spend a year with children who are emotionally broken because they were taken from a loving non abusive non neglectful mother. One would think knowing they would get to go back to their mother would make them happy but Melissa Dobmeier hears that and leaves the courthouse tormented.They showed up at court hearings like they were shopping at wal mart. The thought of the mother losing her children and what it would do to that mother was of no concern, they placed an order with the judge for her children. Dismissing the needs of this family to get their met. That is why the children get worse and that is why they are not fit to parent anyone. 

Iconclude typically there is an abuser in the mix to seed  the addicts maladaptive behavior in this case there were multiple people involved in creating future Addicts. Everyone involved have taken three children who have genetics that will not hold up under long term terror. You have a mother who has nothing to live for because the only thing that kept her constantly trying to change are gone. If the mother loses these children she will not survive easy predictor probable cause of death over dose.  The mother also a cycle people treat. The judge is aware he was terrorizing a trauma survivor and the only way she could complete the case plan was to not be terrorized. The judge had price tags on her children, which is why she went from doing amazing to coming undone in a matter of days. it was a break from not sleeping and being terrorized. 

Why did the mother make great strides when Miss Bracken started doing Sally Schroers Job, counter acting every service Sally schroer CUT TO SCREW THE MOTHER also could not work with the mother after because Ms bracken recorded everything.  Sally schroer had a difficult time harassing the mother and perjuring documents because MS Bracken kept the abusive woman at bay the mother's progress soared because someone thought and treated her better than garbage. However after all that work the judge would abuse her into another bout of not sleeping for days due to his abusive conduct. 

How hard is it to help someone with out terrorizing them ? HOW FUCKING HARD IS IT. MSBRACKEN WRITES WHILE SHE WATCHES THE JUDGE BEAT THE MOTHER DOWN NEVER ALLOWING HER UP FOR AIR SHE KNOWS WHAT WILL BE COMING BECAUSE MISS BRACKEN HAD TO WORK WITH THE MOTHER SHE ALSO NEEDED TO KNOW WHAT CPTSD IS. 

GENIE HARRIS WAS GOING IN TO VIOLENT SHAKING EVERY TIME SHE ENTERED THE COURT HOUSE. WITH NO SLEEP FOR THREE DAYS AT A TIME. 

THE JUDGE MADE SURE TO IGNOR WHAT THIS FAMILY NEEDED SOCIAL WORKERS CUTTING SERVICES TO REUNITE CHILDREN. TAKING CHILDREN WHEN ZERO LAWS SUPPORT IT 




 he terminated the mother's rights for not having the ability to complete the 6 month case plan that could not be completed. 

To make things worse  the child is often rebuked or punished for “complaining” or “making trouble” by drawing attention to his or her pain and despair.  For example a four year old child tells the adult in charge he wants to live with his mommy and wants to know why he cannot. The adult may respond "because your mommy is a crack head that's why"(Melissa Dobmeier's sister)  Maybe the child is told the strangers he was given to illegally want to keep him forever and the four year old child  responds "if you try to do that I will run away. The responsible adult would have recorded that conversation in the parent time notes so his emotional needs could be addressed. However when the child says it the first time to his temporary caretakers  it is ignored. When the child says it a second time to the supervisor of visitation it went undocumented by the supervisor of visitation. The reason it was caught is because someone made the mother carry a tape recorder. On the tape recorder the child repeats that his aunt told him his mother is a crack head and he cannot live with her. He also said "(just age 4 which is why it is so  heart breaking)" that the Dobmeier's told him they were trying to make it so they could keep him so he could never go back to his mommy.The four year old said mommy I told them if they tried to do that i will just keep trying to run away and I will never stop until i get you back again. 

The mother tried to address it but was instantly shut down with a threat by Irene christenson. She tells the mother if she says anything to the child she will shut down visitation and cancel the visit. The mother has no choice she cannot address her four year old sons fears to make it better. According to the roots of addiction it is even worse when the child's needs are not being met and are ignored.

 the adults responsible  in creating (Le Sueur County Child Protection) & (The Honorable Judge M Michael Baxter) the emotional and physical environment to be  neglectful, erratic, frightening or otherwise injurious; which causes  experiences to be rigid, abandoning, chaotic and/or punishing. Such pain is dismissed, minimized or ignored. 

 http://www.co.le-sueur.mn.us/humanservices/Services.html


The child's emotional dis-regulation  is initially set at a severe high after a forced removal from a caregiver that provided both emotional and physical environmental elements to the child. Over a period of a year the child has escalated to an off the charts high in severity of what was an 18 to now a 24. According to the child psychologist who testified in court that day. These types of red flags are ignored.  Those who are aware of these flags and ignored them have participated in plaguing the child with future addiction that will devastate the childs adult life. 

Thus to even acknowledge the pain of the abandonment or injury is “wrong,” since it rocks the boat, draws the risk of being exiled, perhaps forever. (The Relational Roots of Addiction Published on June 24, 2013 by Kristi Pikiewicz, PhD in Meaningful You)
Such terror makes an imprint on the nervous system that is hard to change; a traumatized child must develop maladaptive behaviors and beliefs to survive this dark and chaotic world, to avoid “burdening” those close to him/her with him/her very human developmental needs.  Best if these needs just go away and never come back. Of course, they don’t.  They can’t; they are an inseparable part of us, even if represent a threat to one’s primary relationships.  They demand soothing, and will find it, even unconsciously, via drugs or alcohol.

THIS IS WHY I FEEL EMPATHY SOMEONE ABUSED THE ADDICT, THE ADDICT WAS A VICTIM FIRST OF SOMEONE WHO COULD NOT MEET THE EMOTIONAL NEEDS OF THE CHILD. FOR EXAMPLE TONY AND MELISSA DOBMEIER CAN PROVIDE SAFETY BUT.... WHEN THE CHILDREN'S EMOTIONAL NEEDS GOT IN THE WAY OF TONY AND MELISSA DOBMEIER'S EMOTIONAL NEEDS BOTH TONY AND MELISSA WERE WILLING TO MAKE THE CHILDREN SUFFER WHEN IT GOT IN THE WAY OF WHAT THEY WANTED.



Emotional cut-offs in families 
have intergenerational consequences.  One of the more predictable and more visible outcomes is that when a parent generation cuts off from the grandparent generation, there is a strong likelihood that the children of these parents will also cut off.  Hypothetically, the more an individual cuts off from the family of origin, the more that person's children are likely to cut off relationships in the future.  A cut-off from the parent generation is frequently justified as making a break from a difficult past for the sake of living in a more ideal present.  However, such reasoning is an emotional reaction to the anxiety in the relationships that have been cut off.

http://www.bowentheory.com/thebowenfamilytheoryanditsusesc3cmhall.htm
The ultimate emotional cut-off is death. Premature and accidental death are ways in which a person or a family may deal with overload anxiety.  
Imagine 15 minute in a baby proof room and t was poverty related so it was not maltreatment . The social worker involved changes state laws just for you.
the law says not maltreatment the law says breaking in to a private residence is a crime but for you its different. 

A judge sentences a mother to grieve the loss of all three of her children  a mother who suffered conditions of that similar to holocaust survivor had been subjected to. Because the mother can't respond to terror the way he wants her to as a result of that torture.

there was always the alternative apprently when someone wanted to help her they could but it could not be through the force of terror

After the judge is done with this family there are three children not getting their needs met when the good guys are bad lies about who there family is the pretend aunt tells the child mommy is a crack head you will never see her again. terror that tony and melissa are going to make his mommy go away. we now have 3 drug addicts in the making 

the mother who has cptsd required a different kind of help or actually according to the law none.  What would make a person terrorize a child 

One possible sequence of events is that intense emotional cut-offs are followed by symptomatic behavior and premature death.  Although this pattern of events is crude and extreme, its outlines are manifested to some extent in a variety of families.  It is possible to make some moves toward closing a cut-off between a dead person and self. These moves consist of contacting persons who were close to the cut-off deceased family member and trying to piece together the life history of the deceased individual.


 Addiction is rooted in a person through their genetics and their environment. Often you will see in one family system for example  generations of alcoholics generations of incarceration as the result of behavioral disorders and lack of coping skills. Each time a wounded child who copes with their emotions through addiction, more violence  becomes a parent the genetics of the child is altered in such a way there is only one way to stop the cycle. One must find a way to bring the family through difficult times together. teaching them how to resolve and support rather than cope destructively.

If the family is broken up and never learns how to resolve or trust or stay together  each new generation will suffer. In these new generations health problems and mental Illness will flourish. That will spiral in to brokenness cut offs and abandonment.



  many drug courts only look at the offender and not the entire family,


Not just for the addict but for the people who love the addict because one person with an addiction will wound many others who will see the immoral act OF an addict as an intent to harm. When that loved one is wounded and cannot forgive or identify that when there is a recovery that person would not be capable of doing that same thing that hurt you. The addict is numbed from feeling in recovery they learn to feel and deal with those feelings.

The wounded loved ones often become resentful and angry in a sense they are handed a torch passed from the addict to the loved one.That loved one will carry that for a long time.

 Addiction wounds and divides families friends and loved ones. Often the unresolved pain and brokenness will manifest and grow in different aspects of their children, grand children and great grand children's lives.. a wounded child cannot forgive the pain that the addict parent inflicted and they break off never resolving the pain that child carries and cannot resolve will be passed down to the addicts grandchild shaping their personality. for example the child of an addict cuts off from the addict now recovered the child does not care there has been a recovery because there is no excuse for what the addict now recovered did. that adult child has associated that cutting off is better than resolving. that resentment will shape the personality of the addicts grandchild as that torch the adult child took from the addict parent just past it on to their child who cut olf from the when there was a conflict.

A strong supporting family unit can endure, forgive and celebrate the addicts achievements. The broken family will continue to recycle future generations of more heartache and brokenness. addiction = pain = empathy.

Baxter in my experience does what so many will never achieve. He identifies there is something wrong and he goes in and conquers. Most likely but not always, he had people under him above him and around him who supported that recovery and forgave him. I conclude he most likely had a strong network of people who loved him and who he loved to pull him through giving him the strength to change. Now I applaud his family and friends what his support network was able to resolve explains this mans strengths and abilities to continue to achieve.

So I move from empathy to identifying his amazing strength and the ability to overcome and power through the hard times. Judge M Michael Baxter you inspire me. your family friends and peers who believed in you inspire me because finding forgiveness for an addict that hurt them as a result of an addiction is not always achievable.

DEAD END JOB
Baxter was general sales manager with United Products Corporation and a sales representative and regional manager for Genstar Roofing Products Company.
There is nothing worse than losing a job you are dependent on to support yourself and your family. For some going out and getting another job that could end in with the same result is fine. For others the reality sinks in. I was dependent on that job with no back up plan. I have a house and car payment maybe some kids to feed? This is all gone and I will lose money I have to start over my home car and kids do not have security. I am going to lose my car or my home. terror sets in.

Baxter changes the odds for himself to make sure job loss is never in his future again.  The man takes something he always wanted to do and does it. This guy makes his dreams come true. How many people do that. Not many.

CAREER
HOLY CRACKERS !

Appointed/Elected:

Appointed Nov. 10, 2008, by Governor Tim Pawlenty.  Elected 2010.  Term expires Jan. 2017.

Education:

J.D., magna cum laude, William Mitchell College of Law in St. Paul, 1991
B.A., College of St. Thomas in St. Paul, 1987

Employment:

Attorney and shareholder; Baxter Engen, Ltd. in Burnsville; 2003-2008
Adjunct professor, William Mitchell College of Law in St. Paul, 1995-2008
Solo practitioner in Apple Valley, 2000-2003
Associate attorney; Robins, Kaplan, Miller and Ciresi in Minneapolis; 1991-2000
Associate attorney, Robbin & Thompson in Wayzata, 1991
General sales manager, United Products Corporation, 1987-1989
Sales representative and regional manager, Genstar Roofing Products Company, 1976-1987

Professional Memberships:

Former member, First Judicial District and Dakota County Bar Associations
Former member, Rosemount City Council
Member, Regional Foreign Trade Zone Commission
Member, Dakota County Communications Center Executive Board
Chair, Rosemount Port Authority
Former chair, St. Joseph’s Board of Education
Former chair, Independent School District (ISD) #196 Budget Advisory Committee
Former chair, Rosemount Downtown Development Commission
Former chair, Rosemount St. Joseph’s Facility Task Force
Former chair, Rosemount High School Senior Party Committee
Former member, Rosemount High School Site Council
Former member, ISD 196 Levy Planning Task Force

Professional and Community Activities:

Former volunteer attorney, family law matters, Legal Assistance of Dakota County
Former Ramsey County volunteer Guardian ad Litem
Presented continuing legal education classes on the role of Guardian ad Litems
Served on a Hennepin County Juvenile Court Guardian ad Litem attorney panel

ADDICTION ADVOCATE 
 I recently stumbled on an article the judge wrote and it was published in the paper.



 Baxter was general sales manager with United Products Corporation and a sales representative and regional manager for Genstar Roofing Products Company.
EUGENIE HARRIS WHO IS SHE. 
DIAGNOSED WITH C-PTSD WHICH IS COMMONLY FOUND IN NAZI CONCENTRATION CAMP SURVIVORS.

the individual is subjected to totalitarian control or torture. If a government has

http://www98.griffith.edu.au/dspace/bitstream/handle/10072/16910/33579_1.pdf?sequence=1

WHAT CROSSES YOUR MIND AT FIRST IS HE IS ABLE TO OVER COME. HE IS ABLE TO CONQUER. HE IS A HERO. ALL THOUGH BEFORE THAT HE WAS A VICTIM.

WHO IS THE PERSON HE HURT AS A RESULT OF HIS RECOVERY.

RECOVERED ADDICTS HAVE A DIFFICULT TIME

 HE ESSENTIALLY FOCUSED IN ON THE FACT THAT THE MOTHER TESTED POSITIVE FOR THC FROM MARIJUANA, RATHER THAN WHAT WAS IN THE BEST INTEREST OF THE MOTHER A TRAUMA SURVIVOR. IN ORDER TO HELP YOU IDENTIFY WITH THE TORTURE OF EUGENIE HARRIS AS A CHILD CPTSD WAS COMMONLY FOUND IN PEOPLE WHO SURVIVED THE NAZI CONSENTRATION CAMPS.


A TRUE VICTIM WHO IS AN AMAZING CARE PROVIDER. DESPITE THE TORTURE SHE ENDURED IN CAPTIVITY OVER A PROLONGED PERIOD OF TIME DURING HER CHILDHOOD.   TRUE VICTIMS OF TORTURE AS A CHILD ARE OFTEN MISUNDERSTOOD WHEN FORMER TRAUMA SURVIVORS  ARE NOT ABLE TO RESPOND TO TORTURE AND ABUSE THE SAME WAY THAT SOMEONE WHO WAS NEVER TORTURED WOULD.

IF I DO THIS, THE CONSEQUENCE IS. SO I WONT DO THIS. IF YOU WANT TO KNOW HOW SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN TORTURED AS A CHILD IS FEELING ONE WOULD HAVE MORE LUCK  HAVE TO ASK THEM HOW BAD THEIR PHYSICAL PAIN IS. THEY CANNOT DESCRIBE THEIR OWN EMOTIONS.

POSSIBLY BAXTER HAD THE DOBMEIER'S IN MIND WHEN HE WAS LOOKING AT BEST INTEREST BUT HE DID NOT HAVE THE PERSON WHO WAS DEALING WITH SYMPTOMS OF BEING TORTURED BY BAXTER AND THE OTHERS.